Hey guys!! So today I'm going to be talking about my experience with anxiety. I've never really had to deal with anxiety before until last year. Around this time last year I was extremely sick. I had a sore throat and a busted ear drum. And I was out for school for a week and a half. And when I got better I didn't wanna go back to school. I mean I went a couple times to school but I wasn't used to walking around the whole school so I would get headaches real easily and I would have to go home early. So being at home so much made me not want to go back.
It got worse and me and my dad would get into huge fights about it and I would freak out and cry and just have a breakdown. And that's basically when my anxiety started. It sucks to have anxiety but it's definitely something you don't want to mess with. My anxiety was so bad that I even told my school counselor that I was gonna kill myself and I had to go to a rehab center but I only stayed there for one day because I was having a non stop breakdown when my dad left me there.
A lot of people don't understand what I go through with this anxiety. The one person who does understand it is my best friend Shannon. Shannon goes through anxiety too. She even went to a rehab center for 30 days due to it. I feel like if I have any problems with anxiety or whatever that I can go to her for advice since she's basically going through the same thing I am.
Just like yesterday, I was stressed because me and my dad were fighting about my computer and I was so stressed, I was crying and shaking. It was bad. And so I went over to Shannon's house for an hour or so while she was getting ready for the Homecoming Dance that happened last night at my old high school.
Shannon helps me out a lot, same with Shelby. Them two are most definitely the people I go to for help. Anxiety eats me up everyday and I honestly hate it. It kills me to have to deal with this because this anxiety has basically costed me my graduation this year. I know half of it was my fault but to me if I didn't have this anxiety it wouldn't of happened at all.
Anxiety is not a sign of weakness. It's a sign of someone who tried to remain strong for so long. And that someone is me.
Alright well that is it! Sorry guys that it was a short blog today! I'm currently writing this at 8 in the morning tired as hell! You guys know the drill follow me on Twitter @Nikki_Cimorelli for more updates on my blog and about my life. Also follow me on Instagram instagram.com/spikernicole. If you are on Quotev.com be sure to follow me on there at quotev.com/PrincessOfProWrestling!!! Love you guys! :) <3
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