Shelby has literally been the only person to ever give a damn about me for this long. She has supported me through so much and been there for me when no one else has. Me and her have the same dream of going into wrestling and I'm hoping that me and her get to train together and get to live out our dream together. We've been best friends for so long now and I'm hoping there's a lot more years to come!
When I was having trouble with school and with my dad and everything Shelby was the one there for me. She's not only my best friend, she's part of my family. If I'm upset or mad or depressed she helps me smile and get through it.
There was a time in my life when I was in a really really dark place and I never told anybody not even Shelby and I would talk and rp (Roleplay) with her and she would always make me laugh and smile over the littlest things. I was depressed because I was missing my mom more and more and I hated that I couldn't remember anything about her or anything me and her did together. Shelby was the one who helped me through it without her even knowing. We talk everyday and in the summer we always pull all-nighters and just talk.
The depression that I had ended up getting worse and worse and my dad found out and I ended up having to start going to counseling and I hated going there because they kept on telling me that I was crazy and that there was nothing they could do. I ended up going to a treatment center for a day because 1. I wouldn't go to school and 2. I wanted to kill myself, I wanted to be dead. My dad wanted me to stay there for 8 months but I had a panic attack and my dad picked me up and took me back home. Me and my dad were fighting a lot and I wasn't talking to anybody except Shelby. When I was thinking about killing myself I was thinking about how if I was to kill myself how upset I would make her and honestly I feel like if Shelby wasn't in my life I would honestly be dead right now. She means the world to me. I used to cut but then my sister used to hide my razors from me and I complained about that to Shelby one morning because I was having a panic attack about something and she calmed me down and told me that cutting wasn't the way to fix things and after that I've fought to stop because I feel like if she lived here in Elkton and if she saw my cuts then she would disappointed in me.
Shelby is literally the one who saved my life. Sometimes I feel like maybe my mom made us meet because she knew I was having trouble and she knew that Shelby was the only one to help me get through it. I'm hoping that me and Shelby's friendship lasts forever. When I get married I want her to be my maid of honor at my wedding. When I have my children I want her to be there and be the fun crazy aunt to them hahaha. And when I go through even more struggles in the future I want her to be there with me and help me through it like she does now. I don't want things to change. I honestly wants thing to stay exactly the way they are now.
I hope you guys have a friendship like me and Shelby do because it's honestly the best feeling in the world knowing that you got somebody right next to you even though they're thousands of miles away and in another state and even though you're only talking to them over the internet.
Shelby, I love you. You are the bestest friend I could ever ask for and when I'm down and out for the count you're always there to help pick me up and make me happy again. I know that you're probably reading this right now and crying but it's true. If we never would of met online I most likely would be dead right now. You and my dad are the only ones that I'm alive and fighting for right now. Hopefully we get to meet in the near future! We DEFINITELY need to start talking about meeting up soon. If I have to work my ass off at Food Lion just to get enough money to get a flight to come to Tennessee to see you I will do that! You know I'll always have your back no matter what and you can come talk to me about anything! I love you Shelbs. <3 <3 <3
Hope you guys enjoyed this blog and I will be back soon with my 50 facts about me blog :D <3
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